Thorns: Fear and Love

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

Untold legend unfolding
At the corners of your mouth.
If I leaned in would you do the same?
My heart beating so heavily.

We stayed up late talking up the night
About anything and everything. You’re the light
Shining into my dark world. Lead me out
From this cave of uncertainty. I am caught.

The tireless routines of life bored me.
We were told how it was then left here
But that isn’t how the tale ends. We are the same
In our hearts so when life changes we never fear.

Hold my hands when I lay
In both the dark and the light.
Here is all I know and will
Upon this Earth casting stones.
Eternity collapsed with a cave in
Taking me far from what once was.
No turning back, no giving up,
No more lies, no more hiding.
If it all ends then let it end now
Without any hesitation, destroy me.
Wipe away what I have become
Down here where all hope dies.
I grow darker and darker every day.
Let in your light to burn away my shadows.

Touch my cheek and look in my eyes.
See my every demon and say they are lies.

We go through these days working so hard.
Silence fills the space between like thorns
On a rose bush. We fear what it warns
But hold your breath I won’t let love discard.

Unconditionally, I stay because I need you.
When the world is a scary place find a friend
You can rely on even when everything goes dark.

You are that friend to me. So let me lean in
For a kiss. I’ll remain and you are the reason.
sa;bdry

Fall from Hubris

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

When the Saints are forgotten
And all that remains is each other
Hold onto what won’t be fading
Away. Find something worth saving.

A curse desecrated this land
Long ago when mankind fell.
Fallen to give new life and tell
Of a new race on primordial sand.

Evolution pushed existence to the ledge.
People knew they were weak
But they always stayed in this war.
Hope fades to be reborn
Like a phoenix resting in the stars.
Is it to say goodbye or hello?
Remind us why we stand here
When our blood runs from wounds.
“Staunch the flow, save me now!”
Begging for life on our backs
‘Cus this life is all we know.
I’m returning to the fray.

And we know the day we can rest again
Will be a future found in the falling rain.

When you fall just get back
On your feet. Is this the human creed?
“Don’t give up!” We made our sins
But when can we make amends?
It might as well be today.

The days of building walls around sin
Have come to their end. If we will win
Say farewell to what we have made.
Pull out the pin and toss the grenade.

Our cities stretching to the Sun
Wade in a darkness. Men have lost
Their way and fight for mere fun.
We may gain a lot but at what cost?

What cost? Please ask yourself. What cost?
Some day all of this might be counted as lost.
sa;bdry

The Birth of a Dream and a Belief

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

I awoke from darkness with new eyes
That always question what I see.
Days went on by, I learned that the key
Of life is in direction. What about lies?

They are constructed from truth
And people rarely see their worth.

Everyone relies on a lie once in a while.
Life gets hard and we break inside;
This is the Shattered Dawn.

I tried to find a lie to rest upon
But the world bound me to the truth.
Everyone danced in the cold night
As my eyes searched the streets
For a sign among these artificial lights.
I need to know what’s actually right
In this fairytale of a wolf’s tooth.
Give into hunger or lose the tension.

I survived without making a choice.
And I reached towards the sky in a joyous
Refrain. I had met myself face to face.

But wait! This wasn’t meant to last when
My friends came to say dreams are dead.
This rage grew in my gut, covered me in red,
Silenced my tongue, and left me alone again.

Everything I knew and cared about rejected.
The tears that never fell made scars on my heart
That will never ever heal. Why did we fall?

A world that was too real and unable to feel.
Why should that be? I found it in me to reel
Back and say no. The words I say with tears streaming:
No, there is nothing wrong in dreaming.

Then I heard hatred spoke against beliefs.
They blamed it for the terrible events
Orchestrated in a desert they never entered.
We called them monsters but these forms we all share.

So I folded inward with downward eyes.
Nobody wants the truth when it stings
But somehow the truth is all my heart sings.
Something had to be done in sake of our ties.

I dreamed of a place where thoughts reside.
These emotions and dreams replicated;
Our humanity preserved. I’m transfixed
On this idea where it no longer matters the side.

This dream is a belief that we can all find peace.
No matter your choices you will find your place.

sa;bdry

New Direction

by Desnei, posted in Uncategorized

Vasha’Lakar has served a purpose of bringing my writing to a wider audience. Under those guidelines the blog has been quite successful. The blog nearly was removed due to me being very inactive. I had some things in my life that needed my attention. Getting started again took a lot of effort which I didn’t mind. My mind began wondering what could be done to improve the quality of the blog. The answers I found stemmed from a comment I received months ago and the concept of a novel I’m writing.

My posts lack a harmony of sorts. Some reflect on my existence while others tell a story in some imagined world. The imagined world is the setting of my novel. Both the setting and my existence correlate with each other on a very complex level. I would very much love to talk about the similarities for days but I’d rather let the writing speak for itself. How exactly does this affect the future of Vasha’Lakar?

I will begin creating paths with my poetry. These paths will show the connections between here and there. When someone reads the poems in the chronological order they’ll see an entirely new perspective. Most of the paths will give background to the novel. (Release date is up in the air still.)

In an attempt to quicken the transition I’ll ask you, my readers. What path interests you the most? Comment your favorite.

Roman Inquisition — Parallel Universe where the Romans attempt to snuff out the truth behind myths.

The Mists — An eternal reservoir of dreams.

Fallen Temple of Kronus — A strong being lost and sealed away behind a veil of stories, myths.

Lost Isles — A part of the Mists left forgotten.

Evolution War — A result of the Roman Inquisition with long reaching consequences based upon the duality of humanity.

The Labyrinth — Pan and his brother escape the Romans.

Vasha’Entra — As Vasha’Lakar is a paradise on Earth, Vasha’Entra was a paradise on Venus.

sa;bdry

Goodbye: A Wish

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

I await here succumbed by the dark.
Shadows swallowed, forms merged,
Hearts laid to rest, and yet tears still lurk.
The stars shining on the last tide forged.

The words spoke from fear circumvent
In my ears like screams left unheard.
Voyage to my core, I must see what hurt
More. Walking away or trying to repent?

We had seen the walls begin to build.
The cups, our hearts, were finally filled.

When you hear the world then heed it.
I would never want you to regret our love.
And for that you must be ready to forget
What we had made. Please just forgive
Me because this hurts but I don’t regret.

Darkness had set on my eyes.
Days in the Sun awaiting the shade
As a respite from what had been made.
A day I saw the glitter leave your eyes.

I welcomed the coming nightfall.
Find your path as I start to find my own.
We must before the birds call.

Time is moving, the Earth is turning;
We are caught in an eternal dance.
The rhythm stays the same,
But not always in the way we want.
I truly did try to be there.
In truth I was your stepping stone
Leading you from a little puddle
To a midnight pond. Cast a stone
Much like a wish into the unknown,
When the dark bursts into light.

It might be really hard now but we will survive
Because in life sometimes you should take a dive.

sa;bdry

What It Means

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

You told me those few words:
“If you must see then just go.
Nothing I say will save you.”
A kindness that forges swords.

In this lonely world I walk to the line.
My heavy feet stumbling and tripping.
Time shifts as I move along. It’s fine,
This paradigm has been constantly moving.

A freedom to chase, a memory to fade.
I couldn’t hold you or stop the serenade
That ripped straight through your chest.
Break this bond before I destroy the rest.

That moment of clarity will be frayed.
Some things need to change and others are stubborn.
You are that stubborn. All sanity washes away,
We walk into the dark hand in hand once more.

I could’ve walked away but I got near
Because from here I can wipe away every tear.

We chased the stars then fell back.
In a free fall we had to make a choice
That we might regret. Look at my face,
I’m scared but I’m here to stay.

sa;bdry

The Scarlet Tears

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

Time starts hesitating.
Our words go silent
But our ears still reverberate.
Rage, sympathy, forgiveness;
All things lost in translation.
I came here to say goodbye.

These scarlet tears flow.
Your warmth draining away,
Breath shallowing, eyes dilating,
And memories reeling once more.

Truly my words confide no mercy.
I chose this lonely path of heresy
But it does me no pleasure, dear friend.
I live to have no regrets in the end.

We were friends standing side by side;
It pained me to see us drifting apart ever so far.
The divide we created through choices. Mar
the pact, we meet here blade to blade.

These scarlet tears flow.
Your warmth draining away,
Breath shallowing, eyes dilating,
And memories reeling once more.

In your paradise find us once again
On the pastures of green as children.
sa;bdry

A Friend Betrayed

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

At the feet of some great calamity
All we could do was bow and surrender.
Lost the fight, strife remained. Questions
About tomorrow hovered before us
And answers were things never offered.

Foul intent imprisoned our hearts
In iron cages that no one ever departs.

Our enemy accepted as a brother, tongue bit.
It created a Kingdom as we danced to the tune it had set.
With fear in our eyes we watched it like a God
But awaited for the end of this reign. It never did.

A million civilizations created and a million erased in our heads,
Perfection kept out of reach. These sins never forgotten,
Left unredeemed, will never leave.

Words awaited inside but the time is late.
These things are better left unsaid,
Ya know the way we barter time. Afraid
If we step out of line that the weight
Of the world will bear down and never fade.
In truth it’s what we hide and made,
A monster devouring both love and hate.

This monster is us. You and I, every time
We fight to survive. These are the rules of this game.
Rise to fall, fall to rise; we’re caught in a rhyme.

sa;bdry

A Kiss

by Desnei, posted in Uncategorized

Lips left untouched. They await
A cascade of emotion, soft and delicate,
To connect two people. Is it fate?

Ideally yeah, I want it to be our destiny
Where we collide together like stars.
She’ll overtake me. Like in a litany
Repeat my name to treat your scars.

The truth is we don’t have time to waste
Arguing about petty little things.
She always looks to me for the light I cast.
Somewhere a heavenly bell rings.

When she sees the things that I see
A whole entire reality is created. She is the key
And I’m the lock, a story that needs to be told.
See these nights sometimes are far too cold.

I tried fighting back to warm myself
But nothing could thaw out my heart from within.
Some point I found that there’s some warmth in sin
As I kneel for a taste. It’s a sacrifice of self.

My heart didn’t approve and I learned to walk away.
Don’t think I did this for me. Just I couldn’t stay.

Too many moments of blind lust erased me,
Changed me, and imprisoned me. It’s the same
Way we justify our transgressions. Please tame
My heart so I can walk by your side in this game.

Nothing matters more to me. I can handle the cold
As long as I can hold your hand. I’ll take the cards and fold
Because I’ll never bet with our beautiful lives.
My heart is weak and feeble as it gives
Itself to you. I really just want to break out of a mold
That destines most people to pain. It’s in what we sold.

Hearts given away to those who desire flesh
Tend to never return the same. Ravaged by hunger,
Tricked by deceit — everything we are is crucified
Before us, bleeding our regrets into the soil.

From the blood spilled in the preservation of lies
Terrible things will spawn. So sever all those ties.

Don’t let the darkness take over the daylight.
Listen to me and we can set it right.
As we march towards the future
A futile memory tells us that this is a dream.
So please if that’s what you believe scream
Your heart out! Let that be your life’s overture.

We’re starting from today, putting our best foot forward,
To bring back the fire inside of our hearts. What we go toward
Is our choice alone. Learn to believe in fate despite what we know
Because you never know when you’ll need it like Christmas snow.sa;bdry

She Who Breathes Life: The Muse

by Desnei, posted in Uncategorized

Fragile in her ways she touches the world.
As it lays blanketed by frost and lost in slumber
A memory lingers just beneath the soil.
Most men ignore her or desperately ask her number
But none of them see her. An angel’s loyal
Heart set free from the stars and the underworld.

She’s biding her time in search for a reason
To smile even though it feels like treason.

Take a second to rewind time. these events
Transcribed into the reservoir of our minds
Like a dagger placed in the hands of the starving,
Memories created without any true understanding.
Yet we try in some way to always be deserving
Of some grand plan be it spiritual or man made
And that keeps us down from our own potential.
So as she feels lost there’s someone lost as well.

Arrogant in his ways he sparks fire with his touch
And everything he knows has been charred black.
A memory lingers just beneath the flames.
Most people ignore him as a weirdo, a mistake, a time bomb
But he looks up to the sky with innocent eyes.
Written in as a thief fallen from a distant paradise.

They don’t know each other that well
Except for what dreams tell them in part.
It’s the one thing keeping hearts in beat
When the world all but stopped it long ago with a spell.
In this time of not knowing when to start
A single moment will tell them to depart.
As she rose from the floor from the sky he fell.

Her longing eyes met his deepened by true emotions
Pouring out creating with them uncharted, new oceans.

A step to take, a chance to make, life at stake;
Every memory of the past once closely guarded within
Released for this single moment where they awake.
Her true colors begin to show like a sip of jin.

He looked at her for longer than a moment,
Saw the beauty on the outside as a testament
To her beauty within, and found himself inspired.
See he wanted something true not what he desired
Because he knew what he needed wasn’t flesh.
He searched for a true heart not made of a mesh.
Someone who is unique and real
Just because he needed it to feel.

Simple words he wrote became magic in his head
Due to what she said. His muse, a goddess of his own,
Gives life new meaning and picks him up when he’s down.
He writes to show his love, she illuminates where he’ll tread.sa;bdry