Tag: Love

A Heart’s Reset

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

I took the time and built something
I thought would last. Every choice
A mistake because I lost my face
In the mirror. A bell unable to ring.

Recreate what is inside and fail.
Well I lost my way in a fairy tale.

Please forgive me. I know I was never
Good enough to put my fears to rest.
They crept upon me bringing darkness
Upon blue skies. My heart tears apart
Like a love note a young boy never sent.
Or maybe the tears he cried, he was rejected
Because he wasn’t good enough at the time.
Love evaded him for so long until a day came
Where someone saw something in him.
She left so quickly as if a cherry blossom
Making him miss her even more. He
quickly amassed love stories but no path.
None of them stayed by his side.
Now a man he still cries the nights away
Wishing he never ever knew love.
Made amends with an old love just to
Find himself unable to stay. How ironic?

I am him, lost inside of my own heart
Without a compass to lead me home.

Every memory replays in my head
Like punishment for how I lived.
How can I atone? The answer thrived
Deep in me. Find a path that I can tread.

Send me back home as my heart
Goes supernova. I must face
My own demons to be free again.
I walked away so I learn to smile
Because life is too short. I’m sorry.
My heart needs to start over. . .
sa;bdry

From the Darklight

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

Falling tears shatter these lonely walls
Around us, sound proof and immune
To the things holding us together — one to one.
Coldness we were taught, still the heart calls.

You see I came to know the world
From the sunshine to the shadows,
Heaven to Hell. I still felt felt empty.
Was it that the answers held no sympathy?
Did I dislike what I found? Did I get lost?
What came of my heart in the darklight?
It changed as I realized that I reside here
Which sounds obvious but it wasn’t.

At the edge of eternity gazing into darkness
I saw my individuality vanish like a shooting star.
All the wars we fought didn’t ever leave a scar
On the flesh shared. No need for selfishness.

Billions of individuals beneath the Sun
Just remember from the stars we are one.
sa;bdry

Peace Isn’t Always Happy (Self-Destruct)

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

Serenity. A careless whisper
Takes it toll like a hidden dagger.
My whole entire peace of mind decays
And the interior becomes exposed.
Twist my heart, unsettle my nerves,
Burn my will, erase me from your mind.

Rewind the scene just to disengage!

On the day this began you sat there
With a smile tempting inner monsters.
I was intoxicated by both sin and fear
Unable to move. For starters,

The peace I cherished was boring.
I dreaded the truth but realized it
As my heart reverberated the dullness
Like I was hollow and empty inside.
Break the bindings around my ankles!

I summoned the hurricane to see my demise.

Waters, the tears forgotten, receded
Just to return home once more. I heeded
The signs but remained on the beach.
Everything has finally fell out of reach.

Why did your words still strike me?
Armor couldn’t block what I had let in
To my heart. Our blood runs the same.

Set the charges on my mind’s wall
Then blast through every barrier beyond.
This is war to bring me back from the Rivers
Because the coin I gave the Ferryman was fake.

Your eyes are the map that brings me to life.

Caught by the tug and pull of others
I abandoned myself in pursuit of lies.
But even when torn apart one thing frees
Me. Something that gives angels new feathers.

It is only you returning hope to my hands.
Together we’ll begin a journey to new lands.

Please tell me the storm is over. . .lie to me.
sa;bdry

Thorns: Fear and Love

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

Untold legend unfolding
At the corners of your mouth.
If I leaned in would you do the same?
My heart beating so heavily.

We stayed up late talking up the night
About anything and everything. You’re the light
Shining into my dark world. Lead me out
From this cave of uncertainty. I am caught.

The tireless routines of life bored me.
We were told how it was then left here
But that isn’t how the tale ends. We are the same
In our hearts so when life changes we never fear.

Hold my hands when I lay
In both the dark and the light.
Here is all I know and will
Upon this Earth casting stones.
Eternity collapsed with a cave in
Taking me far from what once was.
No turning back, no giving up,
No more lies, no more hiding.
If it all ends then let it end now
Without any hesitation, destroy me.
Wipe away what I have become
Down here where all hope dies.
I grow darker and darker every day.
Let in your light to burn away my shadows.

Touch my cheek and look in my eyes.
See my every demon and say they are lies.

We go through these days working so hard.
Silence fills the space between like thorns
On a rose bush. We fear what it warns
But hold your breath I won’t let love discard.

Unconditionally, I stay because I need you.
When the world is a scary place find a friend
You can rely on even when everything goes dark.

You are that friend to me. So let me lean in
For a kiss. I’ll remain and you are the reason.
sa;bdry

The Birth of a Dream and a Belief

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

I awoke from darkness with new eyes
That always question what I see.
Days went on by, I learned that the key
Of life is in direction. What about lies?

They are constructed from truth
And people rarely see their worth.

Everyone relies on a lie once in a while.
Life gets hard and we break inside;
This is the Shattered Dawn.

I tried to find a lie to rest upon
But the world bound me to the truth.
Everyone danced in the cold night
As my eyes searched the streets
For a sign among these artificial lights.
I need to know what’s actually right
In this fairytale of a wolf’s tooth.
Give into hunger or lose the tension.

I survived without making a choice.
And I reached towards the sky in a joyous
Refrain. I had met myself face to face.

But wait! This wasn’t meant to last when
My friends came to say dreams are dead.
This rage grew in my gut, covered me in red,
Silenced my tongue, and left me alone again.

Everything I knew and cared about rejected.
The tears that never fell made scars on my heart
That will never ever heal. Why did we fall?

A world that was too real and unable to feel.
Why should that be? I found it in me to reel
Back and say no. The words I say with tears streaming:
No, there is nothing wrong in dreaming.

Then I heard hatred spoke against beliefs.
They blamed it for the terrible events
Orchestrated in a desert they never entered.
We called them monsters but these forms we all share.

So I folded inward with downward eyes.
Nobody wants the truth when it stings
But somehow the truth is all my heart sings.
Something had to be done in sake of our ties.

I dreamed of a place where thoughts reside.
These emotions and dreams replicated;
Our humanity preserved. I’m transfixed
On this idea where it no longer matters the side.

This dream is a belief that we can all find peace.
No matter your choices you will find your place.

sa;bdry

Goodbye: A Wish

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

I await here succumbed by the dark.
Shadows swallowed, forms merged,
Hearts laid to rest, and yet tears still lurk.
The stars shining on the last tide forged.

The words spoke from fear circumvent
In my ears like screams left unheard.
Voyage to my core, I must see what hurt
More. Walking away or trying to repent?

We had seen the walls begin to build.
The cups, our hearts, were finally filled.

When you hear the world then heed it.
I would never want you to regret our love.
And for that you must be ready to forget
What we had made. Please just forgive
Me because this hurts but I don’t regret.

Darkness had set on my eyes.
Days in the Sun awaiting the shade
As a respite from what had been made.
A day I saw the glitter leave your eyes.

I welcomed the coming nightfall.
Find your path as I start to find my own.
We must before the birds call.

Time is moving, the Earth is turning;
We are caught in an eternal dance.
The rhythm stays the same,
But not always in the way we want.
I truly did try to be there.
In truth I was your stepping stone
Leading you from a little puddle
To a midnight pond. Cast a stone
Much like a wish into the unknown,
When the dark bursts into light.

It might be really hard now but we will survive
Because in life sometimes you should take a dive.

sa;bdry

What It Means

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

You told me those few words:
“If you must see then just go.
Nothing I say will save you.”
A kindness that forges swords.

In this lonely world I walk to the line.
My heavy feet stumbling and tripping.
Time shifts as I move along. It’s fine,
This paradigm has been constantly moving.

A freedom to chase, a memory to fade.
I couldn’t hold you or stop the serenade
That ripped straight through your chest.
Break this bond before I destroy the rest.

That moment of clarity will be frayed.
Some things need to change and others are stubborn.
You are that stubborn. All sanity washes away,
We walk into the dark hand in hand once more.

I could’ve walked away but I got near
Because from here I can wipe away every tear.

We chased the stars then fell back.
In a free fall we had to make a choice
That we might regret. Look at my face,
I’m scared but I’m here to stay.

sa;bdry

The Scarlet Tears

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

Time starts hesitating.
Our words go silent
But our ears still reverberate.
Rage, sympathy, forgiveness;
All things lost in translation.
I came here to say goodbye.

These scarlet tears flow.
Your warmth draining away,
Breath shallowing, eyes dilating,
And memories reeling once more.

Truly my words confide no mercy.
I chose this lonely path of heresy
But it does me no pleasure, dear friend.
I live to have no regrets in the end.

We were friends standing side by side;
It pained me to see us drifting apart ever so far.
The divide we created through choices. Mar
the pact, we meet here blade to blade.

These scarlet tears flow.
Your warmth draining away,
Breath shallowing, eyes dilating,
And memories reeling once more.

In your paradise find us once again
On the pastures of green as children.
sa;bdry

I Won’t Walk Away

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

Darkness falling from the eyes of
You who got me so strung up
Like a noose coiled around my neck
Hanging me there within these walls.
Under the control of your cloven heart it calls
For a sacrifice made of blood and bone.
Watch as everything that is is now gone.
Taken from us, lost in transition, we wreck
Our way through the fields. I gulp.
Searching for what can’t be found. Love.

If the green scenery fades away
What remains below, the sub-reality?
Relinquish the trappings of Heaven
Let me see your Hell. . .scars you hide.
If I can’t see where you stay
Tell me how else I can repay what was given!
To me this wasn’t a free ride
It was my only home in actuality.

Caught in this fairy tale of despair I halt
Looking back. In the flash of a lightning bolt.

Specters rise from the burnt soil
Singing their ghostly tales.
They don’t see a reason in all this toil
We’re going through. Great wind gales
Push us back, the whirlwind of Hell,
And I’m grabbing your hand all the same still.
Their sorrow floods the only trails
Leading us out of the serpent’s coil.
I’ve seen love and sometimes it fails
But not today if our hearts remain loyal.

The tears from spirits burn bright
And hiss like snakes. So hold onto me,
We can make it through. Don’t stay the same
But don’t turn your back on what’s right.

Even if we lose sight. Keep it straight,
The words you say and the things you do
Map out a constellation for the night.
Wherever you are, I’ll be there for you.
Yeah it’s going to get tough, we will fight,
Somehow we’ll come back if we stay true.
No matter how dark the night I’ll see your light.

Every day is a blessing.
Things change but some don’t,
It’s the ones that don’t that warm us up
From the inside out. Remember that cup
Of coffee on a cold Winter day. Count
It as a reminder for time passing.

We go through all this time side by side.
But do you know where our hearts reside?
At the core of our lives!
Even if you have lost track, I will decide
That I’m not letting go as I wait for the tide.

Grab my hand like a hilt of a blade
And look into my eyes.
For this love we have already paid
With tears. Love dies
After a long war not just a grenade.

Walk with me when we see the yellow Sun
Glowing just for us. Together we can run,
Scream our hearts out, and see that we won.
sa;bdry

The Crimson Tide

by Desnei, posted in Poetry

Confiding thoughts relentlessly attack
The state of mind I’m in. If I breathe
I might see the fire go out, lack of air to heave
My chest from eternal stasis. It’s what I lack
And not what I have to gain that I find myself terrified
Of. But somehow every tear I cry is rectified
By the will in my heart to press forward with the pack.

In my silence my titles strip away
One by one like the death of stars in the night sky.

Around me my kin bare their teeth
At a unknowing gazelle. Hunger pushes
Them over the edge, survival instincts breaking in.
Sense and rationality sacrificed for no
More than the fire in our bellies telling
Everyone what they need to survive.

Take me out of this equation.
I’m a stone taken by erosion
Rot yet I seek my own revelation.

How do I find myself here?
Teeth baring, heart racing,
Every rational thought
Ceases from within.

But I pressure myself back
Maintaining distance from the beast.
This beast walking through my mind
As if on a stroll and I only know it’s smell,
It’s shape, it’s home; all of which are me.

My kin stare at me with blank eyes,
Glazed over by insatiable hunger.

White iris puddles get sweeter
As hearts grow ever, ever darker.

Lost in a scarlet scene I look to blue skies.

Tell me that there’s more to this story
Because I feel like a miner lost in a quarry.

Deposits of ore among the rock and dirt,
Gems to find and protect. Sweaty shirt
Taken off, dirty hands, and a heart
Made of stone. How do I depart?

Two illusions of the same life!
What does this serve? My God, my King,
Show me how I can walk anew.
Toss these rinds back and set off,
Ain’t no way I can stay sane here
When my memories eat away at my flesh.

Shadows of my emotion haunt me now
And I can’t breathe without them holding on
To me and my dreams. Can I show
That I am real not a plastic mannequin
On display? I found my own low.

Falling through the clouds of Heaven,
Forgiven and forgotten.

In a few seconds I’ll collide with the ground
And return to my home. Not for a pound
Or any money just curiosity.
I guess we could call it a necessity.

How the beast creates a grave’s mound
Isn’t the same as how people are bound.

Death doesn’t create brothers
Although we bleed side by side.
So many people lost fathers and mothers.
What for? Where does home reside?

Now that they’re gone, the world falls apart.
And all we need is brothers and sisters.
They feed us bullets until we depart.

Why brother, why do you reject my love?
Every second we walk away from the cove
Where our hearts bled. What path did you choose?

When I try to break bread. . .you prepare a noose.

If I must die tonight
Please let me make this right.

When the world is falling apart around you
Don’t ya cry ever for there is light in the end
Of your darkest night. Give me your hand
And let us see that tomorrow. Just let your pain end;
It won’t serve you, it will shatter you.
sa;bdry